My blog is super dead! YES! no pictures.. just words but who cares anyway? There's facebook ;D

Had fun at lan with the people! anil etc etc ! haha yeah i enjoyed myself ;D I enjoyed myself going home with him more.

I just wanna say that Im sorry for doubting you or ignoring u. When HE told you that, I knew that you will be super heartbroken and sad... Im sorry. And will never do that again

wO AI NI ~

Step up 3D was awesome and I am so going to watch it again with dancemates (Y) inspire us to be another better dancer. Awesome much.
26 26 26 26 26 26 26 AND 25 25 25 25 was awesome.

HAPPY HAPPY!

I got some of my CT results back and am quite pleased with it. Ms gan gave me yellow forms ... crap
WAAKAKA MY LIFE IS SO SEXYNOW

Wow I just realized that I love you so much sia....

13 things

Am really not happy now cause there is chinese tomorrow. I suck in chinese and chinese pulled me down on my percentage for MYE.

13 things I want in my life for now.

1.To get promoted to Express

2.An A1 for maths again

3.An a1 for geography as I am quite strong in that sub

4.Things to remain this way

5. Be more organized

6. Positive and determination ( Like now )

7. More attention from mummy

8. Try to save more $$

9. Trying not to get amnesia...

10. Emily the strange things - Books,bags,dolls etc

11. To have a chance to go AUS with dance

12. Time to go abit slower

13. Have fun

Am super tired now because of this morning and afternoon's plans . We, 1c1 had to go to NAPS to give our post cards and tell the students to sign it for singapore. Went back to school and we had wasted 45 mins of our freee time and life on staying back and complaining about ms gan. How awesome. Thank god that the test was postponed to next wed. Wasn't really prepared to do it so THANK GOD!

I need to mug really hard now as common test is just next fri and I am so going to spam time on studying and should stop my NONSENSE for awhile.

I hate my class. Stupid people! I mean must they be so annoying? I am fine with all the girls in my class but some of the boys are really asking for a BEATING. GOSHH!

FUCK 1C1

FUCKERS

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It's humanities this week and guess what? Navjeet and I got chosen for the GEOG lower sec competition and we got 3rd. Well we could be champion but because I shouted out the ans and didn't raised my hand so , not counted. How shit is this. Twice somemore. Oh well... at least getting a third is not so bad afterall.

Class has been great.So far. But I guess it can be much better. My life is improving but at the same time, I feel like runnning away from reality, the fact that I have the 98 % chance to stay in NA. THIS IS SHIT!!! super shit!! Science test is on friday. I have to study really hard for that. Okay whatever now. I need a break.

Sometimes , I wondered why the fuck would I wanna stress myself out?! why am I torturing myself? why am I giving myself pressure?! this is shit! No one can understand me EXCEPT Jiajun and Navjeet. They could understand me and I got the assurance of them keeping my secrets and I feel really comfortable confiding my feelings to them. Awesome.

SUICIDE TEMPTATION

Guess what? I didn't have the time to blog and the time to blog about Tapestry 4. Pictures are all on fb.

On sat, I had an awesome day with Jiajun, Yeexuan, Rahim ,Jarrett and Mitchell at ETP and movies with the other rest. Was jiajun's birthday. Had fun. But on that fcking night, I suddenly had the temptation to jump off a building. I wanna experience the pain and life after death. I suddenly felt so low and I felt like the most useless person on earth cause it's like I don't even think that I can go to express . Really very depressed about it. On the next day of school, I talked to navjeet about it. She and I don't even feel like living in this horrible and polluted earth anymore . We wanna jump down together cause we swore that we are BEST FRIENDS FOREVER and that means that we are together forever. Die together . I teared after thinking about everything NOT because of me wanting to end my life but because of my misery. My mind was crazy at that time! I don't know what the fuck is happening to me . I don't want to like this either, emo and gross . Even though I am fine now, but I think I might consider jumping off the building if I do not get into Express. Oh wait I don't think . I PROMISED MYSELF! everyone is enjoying their sec 1 life now but I am not. I am studying hard ! very hard! and whats worst is that people all told me that " Oh you can do it! i believe in you! jyjy!" " PRove them wrong! continue tobe like this! I believe in you!" and etc but DO I FUCKING BELIEVE IN MYSELF?! NO! so why bother telling me?? I was angry with myself for losing all those confidence because I had been slacking recently . WHY THE FUCK IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?! If I could, I will jump off the building now. Not because I want a death-attention but because I hate to live with regrets and troubles already. IT SUCK YOUR LIFE UP!

FUCK LIFE NOW!